Excessive

I don't think I've written about it, or maybe only a little, but I made my own wine at home. So far I've made two Sauvignon Blanc's and a Cabernet Sauvignon. Last week was the Wallacetown Fair and they had an amateur wine competition, so Bekki pressured me into entering. I really wasn't going to, I didn't think my wine was good enough. We were going to enter my white, because it's quite drinkable. I didn't think entering a red made any sense because not only is my read wine very young, I also don't think it's very good.

A large number of things have made it so I stopped writing, ranging from large, life altering things, to smaller, more hobby related things.

Back at the end of July, Bekki and I went to I4C, the international cool climate chardonnay festival, which we promptly picked up COVID. The day we got home it hit us, and the next morning we were out. It was basically a full week of near hallucination level sickness, both Bekki and I were down for the count, both kids basically taking care of themselves. That whole stretch really messed up my ability to find time to write, and had long lasting health effects, including taste, smell and shortness of breath issues (as well as perhaps blood pressure issues).

It's hard to escape headaches. It feels like I have them more than I don't. It's such a part of my life, it's hard to describe. What I do, when I go to bed, what I do before bed, or how I wake up are constantly determined by if I have, or if I feel a headache or migraine coming. I balance taking migraine pills (which work) because I only get 10 a month, but I probably need 15. It's not really something that can be increased.

Ollie is one of the kindest, most genuine and caring person I know. He is sweet, and inclusive, and excited by everything. He is in a class with at least a couple kids at daycare who are total assholes, and constantly hit him daily. Something so bad happened today that the daycare had to call me to inform me of it, and Bekki and I went there immediately to get him. He was napping at the time, so I went back later and got him as soon as he was awake.

Jensen started his first day of summer camp today. It's over at the school, and he's got people he knows there. He wasn't too nervous, but he had a bit of a rougher day than normal. He apparently has a case of hand foot mouth, as he has blisters/rash all over his arm and leg. It's itchy and bothering him. As a precaution, we put bandaids over almost all of them on his arm, and Bekki gave him some Benedryl, which she probably shouldn't have, but what happened happened. It can cause severe drowisness and disorientation, so I was pretty worried he was going to ... fall asleep, get confused, get scared cause he felt high, among other things. It all seemed to go okay, his teacher reported that he almost fell asleep in his chair but eventually came around and snapped out of it.

Bekki is going to a work thing tomorrow morning in Toronto and I'll be home alone with the kids for the morning routine, breakfast, getting everything ready for school and daycare, and then taking the kids. Then I believe I have to pick them up, do the dinner thing, and then they're going to Bekki's parent's for a sleepover, as it's Jensen's last day of school, and they were going to go there to hangout during the day Thursday, so it's okay for them to sleep over.

I had a pretty rough few days - the end of last week into this start of this week. It was so bad I had to take some days off work to just try to decompress and figure out what I was going through. I pretty much just played Final Fantasy 14 for both my Thursday and Friday as a means to escape and it did help a bit. 

Today was absolutely brutal. I had an on again off again headache all day, being worse in the morning, getting better and then getting very bad again after dinner. I feel so exausted that I can barely function. I tried to play some Final Fantasy 14, but I was so tired I had to stop. I sat down to watch TNG before bed, and to write this, but I can't bring myself to say much else.

I had a really bad sleep last night, waking up a lot, Ollie waking us up constanly, and then I woke up with a headache that quickly became a full migraine. I took my second last migraine pill until July and barely made it out the door to take Ollie to daycare.

Today was Ollie's graduation at daycare. This doesn't mean he's done or anything, he still has to go until the first day of school, but this was a celebration of his time there and his moving on to school in September. After dinner today, we went to his graduation and it was great to see him in front of everyone. He came out for his "diploma" and to pose for a picture, and he did great with that. I could tell he was nervous, but he copes well. He then came out afterward to sing a song with a class and it was chaos but in a hilarious way. The entire time he scratched his eye, the kids in his class acted out or didn't sing, but it was fun anyway.